Goals and Reflections

As 2017 comes to a close I sit and reflect on this past year.  It has had more ups than it has had downs, I have accomplished a lot in the way of growing as a person (Still an asshole though – that probably won’t ever change). I have reached goals I didn’t think  I…

Struggle Bus.. I am on it

Normally my mental health is pretty stable,  it gets rocky once and a while but during the holidays I am usually really centered, do a lot of self talk, prepare myself to deal with my eating disorder so I remain in control, my anxiety is usually pretty minimal  – these people are my family its…

I am not ready!

One week until Christmas and I am sitting here not ready.  I am not sure what happened this year but its like Christmas snuck up on me, I still need to get a couple gifts – Which involves me going to the mall, a week before Christmas because I apparently enjoy torturing myself. I have…

WLS Update

Yesterday was my final appointment at the bariatric clinic, everything went the same as the last check-ins went, which is good.  I am down 21.5 pounds since my first consult which is 21.5 more pounds than I thought I would lose.  My iron is a little low as is my vitamin D – both of…

So This is 35

Today is the day I have my 6th month check in but more than that today signifies a birthday I have been struggling with for the entire year.  I don’t know why I have been struggling with it honestly its just a number, nothing changes with the date change other than the fact that I…

November Recap

November was not a terrible month, I got my ass back on track and things went smoothly. At the end of October I decided to challenge myself in 2 ways – 1 is to have 500 workouts before I go for surgery in hopefully January (I should know by Dec 13th!) the other was to…