We all float down here…

I went for a float on February 5th.   It was a fantastic experience for my mind and my body. If you don’t know what the hell I am talking about its flotation therapy.  Which is really a fancy way of saying that you got naked and laid in a pod with water and Epsom salts…

Struggle Bus.. I am on it

Normally my mental health is pretty stable,  it gets rocky once and a while but during the holidays I am usually really centered, do a lot of self talk, prepare myself to deal with my eating disorder so I remain in control, my anxiety is usually pretty minimal  – these people are my family its…

I am not ready!

One week until Christmas and I am sitting here not ready.  I am not sure what happened this year but its like Christmas snuck up on me, I still need to get a couple gifts – Which involves me going to the mall, a week before Christmas because I apparently enjoy torturing myself. I have…

So This is 35

Today is the day I have my 6th month check in but more than that today signifies a birthday I have been struggling with for the entire year.  I don’t know why I have been struggling with it honestly its just a number, nothing changes with the date change other than the fact that I…

Feelings or Something Like That

Feelings are hard for me to talk about – or even to put into words but part of growing as a person before surgery (so I am better equipped after surgery) is dealing with uncomfortable parts of my life. Lately I have been struggling with a lot of feelings and I have been just sucking…

Change…

Change is hard no matter what you are changing, your lifestyle, your job, your home, your finances, it is hard and it sucks. I don’t always adapt well to change, I struggle with making necessary changes because its uncomfortable, and I like comfort.  I like knowing what is going to happen, when its going to…

Letting Go…

Letting go is never an easy thing to do, at least not for me. There are few things that I am and probably will forever be working on  but 2 of the major ones are letting go when you need to and not fearing rejection, today I am going to talk about letting go. Letting…