So This is 35

Today is the day I have my 6th month check in but more than that today signifies a birthday I have been struggling with for the entire year.  I don’t know why I have been struggling with it honestly its just a number, nothing changes with the date change other than the fact that I…

Feelings or Something Like That

Feelings are hard for me to talk about – or even to put into words but part of growing as a person before surgery (so I am better equipped after surgery) is dealing with uncomfortable parts of my life. Lately I have been struggling with a lot of feelings and I have been just sucking…

Change…

Change is hard no matter what you are changing, your lifestyle, your job, your home, your finances, it is hard and it sucks. I don’t always adapt well to change, I struggle with making necessary changes because its uncomfortable, and I like comfort.  I like knowing what is going to happen, when its going to…

Letting Go…

Letting go is never an easy thing to do, at least not for me. There are few things that I am and probably will forever be working on  but 2 of the major ones are letting go when you need to and not fearing rejection, today I am going to talk about letting go. Letting…

October… That month that sucked

Well October is over, thank goodness.  I am over October as much as its over. October was a big huge gigantic failure – in terms of goals, in terms of weight loss, in terms of everything. The month started great! Amazing even, my weight continued to go down and life was easy, but October was…

WLS Consult Update & Changes

My WLS consult was  on Wednesday/Thursday of last week.  I have been accepted into the 6 month program (which I kind of already knew because once you get the acceptance letter I think you automatically get to be part of the program). Anyways I met with: a dietitian – who was amazed that I was…

I am Enough

I have 2 voices in my head, one is what I have deemed Elphaba, the other is Glinda, and I of course and Dorothy.  Where Elphaba is out to wreak havoc, and cause chaos and destroy me, Glinda is there to make things okay, to sprinkle a little sunshine, to make me feel like a…