May…. oh May

At the end of every month I grade it – yes with a report card, I gave April a B+.   I considered April to be a pretty large success,  with 30 days of no stimulants,  1000 burpees, And hitting all but 3 of the goals I set out for my self (only missing the…

Truth

The truth can be a scary thing, but it can also be a good thing. I have done a lot of thinking in the last week, and reading, and watching videos, and you name it.  I have done pretty much all the over thinking a person can do before they even get into a program…

Stay Calm….

My phone rang 15 minutes ago.  My phone never rings.  When I saw the number on my phone my heart jumped into my throat, I recognized the number as a Regina number. I have been waiting for a Regina number on my phone for MONTHS, part of me figured it was my phone company, another…

It’s not about the number

I weighed myself this morning.  It was a mistake.  I gained 4.3 pounds in a month. I made a post on MFP this morning that said “Pro tip. If you feel good about yourself you should never. Ever. Ever. Step on the scale I gained almost 5 pounds in a month. Basically I am meant…

I am Enough

I have 2 voices in my head, one is what I have deemed Elphaba, the other is Glinda, and I of course and Dorothy.  Where Elphaba is out to wreak havoc, and cause chaos and destroy me, Glinda is there to make things okay, to sprinkle a little sunshine, to make me feel like a…

April Recap, May goals

April was a trying month, all by my own hand. I decided to really test my feats of willpower and strength in April  by deciding to do No stims AND add in the extra of 1000 burpees.  Lets Recap. Burpees, are awful.  They were awful when I would do 5 or  6 they are awful…

It has been 21 days since I had my last drink that contained caffeine. My last drink of caffiene was literally a drink of diet pepsi at 11:58pm on March 31. I thought this was going to be way harder than it has been as I was mostly caffeine – No really I had issues.…